fuck dAY 1..back to ZERo..0..0..0..
i was unable to stick to it...
so diz tym i'll try tomorrow..real hard...not to let myself down..
wats wrong wif me..
how am i supposed to heal...
i need sth to channel my negative energy...
i dun find books seem to solve my problems...
i need sth...so that i'll forget bout it..
i hv lost interest olmost to everything
wat shud i do..i dun want end up back to day one...
i need sth..bcoz im addicted n i noe its hard to come back the way it supposed to be..
im not me...
mimie is turning into me....
wat hv i bcome...
a monster...disastrous..miserable...yet self proclaimed to be normal..as if nothing bothers me...
i m not i am...
i lost my soul to serve faithflly to god..by doin all diz..i betrayed..i disobeyed...im torn..im bad...
i dun deserve to get sth good or to feel good...
so i need sth i cud hold on to..most important thing is...
i need to clean my heart n soul to HIM-the MIGHTY...coz HE noes wat best for everyone...
and we as human never be thankful n grateful...

i m loosing, i mean i cud lost everything..everything including MY LIFE...